June 19, 2005

Today is the first day of my blog... I am 10w4d pregnant right now. My husband and I went through ALOT to get to this point and we are thrilled!

First, and intro: I am a horrible writer, a horrible speller, and I will never be as witty as some of the writers on here... but I can dream! I am 29, hubby is 28. We have been married and trying for baby for 5 years. I am overweight, have gastric bypass surgery, and am considered high risk because of this. Oh joy!

So... what to type?

Since hubby and I have been trying for a long time to get pregnant, I know just about everything one needs to know about trying to conceive... I know all the functions of the female organs and what the whole process is. (this reminds me how funny I find it is how little so many know about their bodies!) I know all about charting your temps, home pregnancy tests and tests at the doc's office...

But here is the thing... I know NOTHING about being pregnant! We have never gotten a positive before this month. I am almost in, what some refer to, the safe zone... though I don't really think that there is ever a safe zone. I get so sad when I hear for the pregnancies that are ended... I have stopped watching all of those stupid baby related shows on TLC and Discovery Health. I have seen enough deliveries through those to last me a while. I don't need to deal with the sadness of some of them.

Let's see... things I am having issues with:

1) Eating - I find it very hard to decide what I want to eat. Most things sound gross. Meat... YUCK! I only want veggies and fruit, which is NOT ME AT ALL! then again, over the past two weeks, there is nothing better than a bologna and cheese sandwich! lol Then there comes the point at which I am so hungry that the thought of food makes me sick, until I start eating, then whatever I start eating instantly make me feel better!

2) Sleep, give me sleep! - Ok, so my goal during the week is to not take a nap and to try my hardest to stay awake until 8:30pm at least. If I take a nap, then I will not sleep through the night (this is all not including the three trips to the bathroom). So far so good... But Mondays are proving to be really hard since I take weekend naps, stay up later and can't wake up in the am.

3) Gas (sorry TMI) - ok, so I either have too much gas rolling around in my body (it moves from the ribs to the pelvis... ) or I am so constipated that I can't remember when I last went to the bathroom! No smells, thank God! But still... very odd behavior!

4) Headaches - These I just started getting last week. They aren't horrible, but still there. Not sure if these are caused because of the horrible weather we have been having or if it is a preggers symptom...

5) Pimples - I had heard of this happening to people... just never imagined it would happen to ME! They are not bad and you wouldn't even notice them on me unless you looked really close. They are just bumps, not red, not noticeable, just make my face feel bumpy. I didn't even have this as a teenager! Oh well.. I need to suck it up!

So, while these things are annoying.. they are temporary! I will do anything to have a baby at this point... We are just so excited this is actually happening for us! It is something we thought would never happen. But it did...

Oh... we have had 2 ultra sounds so far... the first was done at 6w3d and the second at 9w3d. The first one was a ridiculous experience. Then we changed docs and this second one was an experience we will always remember! The head moved, we saw everything... and heard the little heart... it is the moment it became real! The pick below is the second ultra sound.